can you hear my heartbeat?

#200

2012-02-08T18:58:00.002+08:00

finally reached my 200th post, after so long!

well i don't really care about that. it's just that, i am so tired. not enough sleep. and the days are just drifting by. and i hate myself cause i kept asking what's the purpose of life. life is suffering. no, don't tell me it's up to how i live it. cause it's a fact. once we are born into this world, we are meant to suffer. and i know i can't just end my life like that, cause that would be selfish. don't get me wrong, i dun have any psychological problem. no, i am not gonna commit suicide. that's stupid. i have suffered for two decades. you think i'm going to give up now?

these few days, i have been eating a lot. like, a lot. and i still don't feel full. feels like i am getting fatter :( and i still exercise... but i wonder if my calorie intake is more than what i burn. there seems to be no progress on the losing end. and i wonder what it is that i am doing wrong? but i dun have a scale with me. so i can't exactly weigh myself and make a record of my progress.

dana lunch was finally over last saturday. that's one thing of my list. baw is this week and it's gonna be over this friday. after that, i think i can at least get a breather. but no, i have two tests next week. and two lab reports to hand in the week after that. next week is the last week of the first half semester. time seriously flies this sem.

#199

2012-01-30T20:49:00.004+08:00

我突然很累、可能是因为跟爸妈聊了一些我不太喜欢的东西。我懂、我也了解、他们是为我好。最近我想了很多。其实、我最想要的、就是过一个简简单单的生活。我只要一位爱我的人、我也爱他、两个人有够钱过日子、那有多好啊？我从小没有希望过要做有钱人的老婆。我承认、钱是很重要、可是如果不开心、有那么多钱要干什么呢？其实、这不是重点。我不高兴因为我爸嫌我太空看戏。我为什么不可以看戏呢？人生那么短、我要那么累来干嘛？我很不爽！

#198

2012-01-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

it's chinese new year and i am all alone in my room. feeling a little sickish. and my head's kinda hurting. sigh, probably should have gone back. it's kinda sad to be facing 4 walls for 4 freaking days.

will you get out of my head already?

i know it's mean of me to be saying such things but i guess it's my own fault all along. and so, i hope i can just let it go.

times like these, 觉得我真的很笨。清醒一点吧！

#197

2012-01-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

only first week of school and i already feel so tired :(

deadlines are coming in.. and i am so busy with the cca stuff. feel like choking already. having period and had lecture + lab for 6 HOURS just now. plus.. i so happily agreed to have dinner with my friends outside tomorrow. and i have camp this friday until sunday. and somehow i ended up with 6 modules again this semester. and my lecturers keep posting readings.. tons and tons of them.

AHHHHHHHHH!!

yeah, how awesome it is to be alive.

#196

2012-01-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

Suddenly felt fat after eating Indian rice -_- I am becoming so obsessive with my weight.

But I didn't get to exercise yesterday and today! And tomorrow I have class at 8. It's not my fault for suddenly feeling fat! :(

I had 3 Julie's wheat crackers, one pau, indian rice and kit kat today.

But I think that Indian rice had like 1000 calories!

..

2012-01-09T18:45:00.002+08:00

you suck...............

sigh, what was i expecting? why was i even expecting? i thought i even made a resolution. but it went away just now... just because of that.

and now i lost my appetite.. and mood.

seriously.... i need to move on. i thought i did..

guess i really didn't :(

#194

2011-12-22T16:35:00.002+08:00

Can't help feeling disappointed but alas, what am I hoping for right? Gonna expect less from other people, seriously.

Breakfast

Glutinous Rice Balls = 150?

Some fried noodles = 50?

Lunch

Rice with vege and curry fish = 350

Snack

1 Mangosteen = 40

Dinner

No idea!

Total as of now: 590

Haven't exercised for two days! Nooo!

#193

2011-12-22T16:29:00.002+08:00

Forgot to update on yesterday's diet!

Breakfast

Tosai = 100

Lunch

Rice with otah-otah and steam pork = 400

Snack

2 Bananas = 140

Dinner

Rice with tofu, okra and curry fish = 350

Total = 990

#192

2011-12-20T20:39:00.002+08:00

Got my results today! My CAP increased by 0.03 lol!!! Ok, I'm just really glad I passed my 2101! :) Kinda shocked that we chatted today.. but after chatting, it kind of simmered off.. though some questions were really weird >_>

Breakfast
Piece of bread with jam = 100

Lunch
Rice with pork and vege = 400

Snack
3 small bananas = 216
3 mangosteens = 120

Dinner
Cup of milo = 130
2 packets of Meiji plain crackers = 200

Snack
2 pieces of dark chocolate = 80

Exercise = -200

Total = 1046

Ok, today's amount look better! :D

#191

2011-12-19T19:37:00.002+08:00

Sigh, it was a good dream while it lasted. I wish it would come true! But I guess some dreams remain as.. dreams. To be honest, it felt like something to me. Or maybe I am just over-sensitive and it never even meant anything at all in the very first place huh?

Breakfast
Piece of Hi-5 bread with butter and kaya = 150

Lunch
Economy rice with curry fish and vegetables = 430

Snack
Piece of dark chocolate = 40

Dinner
Vegetables + Beans + Chicken Wing = 160

Total = 780

Okay, this is so unhealthy :(

#190

2011-12-18T19:35:00.003+08:00

Gonna record down all my caloric intake from today onwards! :D Have lost 5kg so far! Wanna lose so much more!

Breakfast
Half Ban Chang Kueh = 61
Two half boiled eggs = 126
One cup of Nescafe = 89

Lunch
One plate Char Koay Teow = 300
One bowl chicken soup = 300

Dinner
One cup of VICO = 136
Two packets of Meiji Plain Crackers = 200

Exercise = -200

Total: 1012

*Rough estimates but I guess it's better than nothing ;)*

#189

2011-10-16T22:16:00.002+08:00

I'm going crazy, officially.

LOL, I seriously don't know whether I should cry or laugh or what! SO many things at once.. and I am listening to song right now and smiling to myself, feeling so funny about my life! omg, even my English is sucking right now!

HAAHAHHAHAHA

1. I haven't finished revising for LSM2101. And my test is on Tuesday.

2. I have Symposium for LSM2251 tomorrow until 6pm.

3. I haven't done my tutorial for IT1001 tomorrow.

4. I have LAC3201 test on Wednesday.

And I just used up almost 2 hours on the buddhist club secretariat job.

LOL, seriously, my life.............. I am beginning to feel that it has become a drama.

#187

2011-10-15T19:05:00.002+08:00

#187

2011-10-12T20:47:00.001+08:00

This is what all girls wanna hear, isn't it? :)

#186

2011-10-11T17:54:00.003+08:00

#185

2011-10-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

#184

2011-10-09T11:00:00.002+08:00

#183

2011-10-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

#182

2011-09-19T13:14:00.000+08:00

was just listening to this song.

and i miss my mom so much.

#181

2011-09-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

And so begins recess week.

#180

2011-09-15T20:05:00.003+08:00

I got my result for english today.

and i just wanna pat myself in the back cause i really did ok and i am proud of my result, which is 25/27 btw. but see, it's really competitive here in NUS. and i think lotsa people get the same marks as me or even higher than me. not that i want to complain, but my friend who got higher than me is not even PROUD of what she got.

though i can't change her mindset, and though i know that academic is really important to her since her mom and the society tell her the same thing, i just want to say that, academic really isn't everything. so what if you get 27/27? it's just a temporary happiness. how long will it last? 1 day? 2 days?

actually, i'm kinda glad that i joined NUSBS and go for dharma circles. i learnt a lot, really a lot about attachments, about being happy here and now, to let go and appreciate what you have in life. after all these years being in singapore, it was as though i got sucked into the meaningless rat race. without NUSBS, i would have been lost forever. i'm not saying academic is not important. i'm not saying that you shouldn't study. what i am trying to imply is that, yes, studies is important but it's not everything in life.

have you stopped to appreciate your life even just once today? food for thought, really.

#179

2011-09-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

To have right speech.

#178

2011-08-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

I think I am getting more and more paranoid. I hate myself for being like this.

#177

2011-08-13T15:07:00.000+08:00

#176

2011-08-12T08:25:00.002+08:00

Just a quick update. Had my first grammar class yesterday. Mr Brown already, like, gave us a super long assignment. And his textbooks costed me $73.

Am having class at 10 later. I don't think it would be quite fun. Well, we'll see how it goes. Probably lunch-ing with my kakis later.

And I just have to share this! Totally AWESOME performance.

#175

2011-08-09T07:42:00.003+08:00

I slept very well these past few nights. But last night, I was pretty damn irritated. I fell asleep around 2230 and suddenly, I heard this really loud sound and it woke me up. I thought it was my alarm so I took my phone and wanted to switch it off. BUT NO, it wasn't my phone. The fire alarm went off! at what time? 2330! But I still manage to fall back asleep. Guess I was pretty tired.

Went out with bel and ta for the second time yesterday. Had awesome lunch at Cafe Cartel and we watched Captain America. Oh boy, he's one fine guy.

AND AND AND, they both gave me souvenirs cause they went somewhere during the holidays.

AND AND AND, bel gave me a Big Bang Collection Card. AWESOMEEEEEEE!

Thanks Bel :D:D:D

This is from ta:

So cute, right?!

Oh btw, Happy National Day to Singapore :)

Shall be off to watch the fireworks later tonight!

#174

2011-08-06T07:23:00.002+08:00

The girl was kind enough to sms me and I told her to not switch on between 10 to 12 cause that's when I was sleeping and she was totally fine with it.

YAY! ~~Problem solved!~~

But see, the problem is, another person is also using an air con.

What the hell.........

And this time, I really have no clue who it might be. The person living upstairs? I asked my next door neighbour if she heard anything at night, and guess what? She said no. And this got me really.. confused. I mean, I had tried putting my ears against her door and obviously, I swore I heard that whirring noise in her room too. Either she's absolutely a pig or she's just a pig.

But thanks to the girl downstairs, who had kept it switched off last night, and even though there were whirring noises from someone else's air con, albeit softer, I totally slept through the night. I am not quite sure if it was because I was tired and lacking of sleep or just simply because I took some cough mixture which had a drowsing effect.

So I guess the only way for me to survive here is to ensure that I come back feeling exhausted every night such that I fall onto my bed and immediately drift off to sleep.

Well, ok. Bring it on!

#173

2011-08-05T12:41:00.000+08:00

Enjoy! <3

#172

2011-08-05T11:22:00.002+08:00

I must have been so tired. I slept through the night. Thanks to Liani, I finally got to go and meet that person below me who has her air con switched on at night. But alas, she wasn't in. I knocked many many times. But nobody opened the door. So I wrote a note and stuck it on her door. Hopefully, she will see it and understand my agony.

Let's pray for the best.

#171

2011-08-04T13:16:00.003+08:00

Couldn't really sleep well last night. I did sleep but I kept on waking up. Must be that whirring noise. And thus, I am having an awful cough with a SUPERBLY sexy voice :) yay! What joy!

But the whirring noise did get a little softer last night. Perhaps his neighbor asked him to do something about it. BUT, it became louder again in the morning. Why does he have to on it? It is so COLD at night. I hope the weather keeps on being gloomy throughout this whole sem. Then at least I can sleep at night.

And I haven't received any emails from Office of Housing yet. So ridiculously slow and annoying. I bet they aren't gonna change for me. Then, fine! Seriously, I will just try my best to accustom to that stupid whirring noise. Maybe I should ask for help from the RA. The problem is, I don't even know who the RA is. Is she even staying on my floor?

I kind of lost interest in entertainment for a few days. Hopefully, I can regain my health and sanity as soon as possible.

#170

2011-08-03T09:23:00.001+08:00

totally crashed last night. after sleeping for only 4 hours the previous night, i dozed off at 10+ and woke up at 8+ this morning. that's about 10 hours of sleep. even the whirring sound did not wake me up..

and now i'm worried if i can sleep tonight.

#169

2011-08-02T16:33:00.002+08:00

My room.............. is..................

i don't know. i was complaining so much about it that i think i'm too paranoid. :(

My only wish now is to be a happier person and less paranoid! Also, to be more forgiving and patient and well.. for everything to go on smoothly!

#168

2011-07-29T11:25:00.003+08:00

saw the chinese newspaper today. can't really understand every single word but there was this article about a 13-year-old girl committing suicide. she even left a Facebook note as her 道别信. apparently, she was caught playing truant. her parents didn't know but she was actually outside with her boyfriend instead of studying at school. her teacher wanted to meet her father and hence, she jumped off her flat.

like seriously, what's wrong with kids these days?

#167

2011-07-28T14:56:00.002+08:00

Summer holidays :

ending soon.

Year 2 sem 1 modules :

LSM2101

LSM2102

LSM2251

IT1001

+ GEK1542 .. that is if I win the bid this coming Tuesday.

+ LAC3201 .. if there are any more slots available during round 3A.

Drama to recommend:

The Greatest Love

Song to recommend:

#165

2011-07-04T15:09:00.002+08:00

Looking at my year 2 modules and I am freaking out.

#164

2011-04-24T20:42:00.002+08:00

exams start tomorrow!

please let everything go smoothly.

and i hope i don't mess up.

GOOD LUCK TO ME BABY!

#163

2011-04-14T14:37:00.001+08:00

finally over and done with LAC2201! :D

#162

2011-04-11T20:50:00.002+08:00

LSM1104 CA2 today.. Prof Ip went through the questions like immediately after the test -_-

anyway, i think i did okay. but i could have done better :( stupid rabbit caecum. it's continuous stir tank reactor! and i picked plug-flow. ah, damn it.

so i only got 45/50.. which is 18/20. oh well :) it cheered me up a bit. i was really emotional this morning. over what, i have no clue. hormones must be making me crazy :(

but today ended pretty good.. so yeah :)

phoebe and esther made me laugh like crazy too!

let's hope the happiness goes on x)

#161

2011-04-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

sorry for being so mean. i'm just not myself today.

sorry, i didn't mean to be so cold.

i wish i wasn't.

but i just couldn't help it.

it's not your fault and yet..

i hope this doesn't happen again.

i'm sorry.

i really am.

i suck.

#160

2011-04-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

Happy April !

:) 27 more days until the end of Sem II.

AWESOMENESS OVERLOAD!

#159

2011-03-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

today.... i am gonna introduce an old song.

westlife - home

may be surrounded by

a million people i

still feel all alone

i just wanna go home

very sad and emotional song. but this is definitely better than black's friday.

totally unrelated:

gosh, i remember saying i wanted to reach 200 by end of 2010. now it's like almost april and i'm still stuck at 158.

horrible monnie!

nothing much happened these few days.

shall get back to studying :)

#158

2011-03-23T21:25:00.002+08:00

Pink - Fucking Perfect

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than fuckin' perfect ;

i was on the same bus as my eye-candy! it was so early and i was still so blur. i didn't even realise he was just beside me until like.. halfway to FOS. and i saw his iphone4 with a jay chou pic. that probably means he listens to jay chou. okay, i sound a bit stalker-ish now. but he's really cute. i think he had his wake-up-hair on. and he was only clad in a t-shirt and shorts but he still looked hella adorable. but the sad thing is, i don't even know his name.

and you wanna know the saddest thing?

he doesn't even know that i exist.

#157

2011-03-22T16:44:00.002+08:00

been feeling so emo lately;;

i am starting to wonder what's wrong with me.

#156

2011-03-09T22:14:00.004+08:00

do you even notice me?

emo.

2011-03-01T20:22:00.003+08:00

i am not sure if it's PMS. if it is, then i'm really glad.

sometimes, i just feel so sad. about myself. and the questions are stupid questions like

1.why am i always wasting time?

2.why can't i be smarter?

3.why can't i be thinner?

4.why can't i have smooth skin?

5.why am i not disciplined?

and it really freaks me out cause i have got absolutely nothing good about myself to flaunt. nothing that i can show off.

i'm not smart.

i'm not pretty.

i'm not sexy.

i'm not talented.

i can't dance.

i can't sing.

i can't play any musical instrument.

i can't run for nuts.

the point is: i can't think of anything GOOD about myself.

i once read in an article that one of the ways to make yourself feel good is to write what you're good at or what you are proud of.

but seriously,

i have nothing.

oh yeah, i know i have legs and hands. i have vision and sight and smell and taste.

SO WHAT?

everyone has those. those are basic NECESSITIES in life.

i mean come on, you have a flat. ok fine, but is that enough for you? NO, now you want a terrace house. or maybe you have a run-down mini van. but now you want a better car.

geddit?!

something's wrong with me :(

..

2011-02-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

seriously, why is that i always face some issues with sleeping at night? :(

it's already 1.30 am and i still can't sleep.

maybe i need to see a doctor on my sleeping disorder.. :( now that sounds really serious.

last day of the term break

2011-02-27T09:20:00.002+08:00

Kenji Wu - 没关系

没关系我们分了没关系

这不是你的问题

是我没那个福气

没福气却又爱上你

this is a seriously nice song. so if you are interested, here's the youtube link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCGyc5ff04c

YAY! finally school starts tomorrow :)

i think i'm the only one looking forward to tomorrow.

good morning.

2011-02-25T12:49:00.002+08:00

Beast - Beautiful

you, my beautiful

you, so beautiful

you, my beautiful

don't be shy girl;

absolutely bouncy and happy song that puts me back into the right mood every single time. try it out! (i totally forgot about the songs thingy until i saw my old posts -_-)

woke up at 8+. did nothing even until now. it's already 1pm. gosh. 5 hours flew by just like that.

oh good lord.

heh.

2011-02-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

thought i should blog cause

1. i haven't blogged since like, forever.

2. i have nothing else better to do. of course, there's always the studying part. but bleah!!!!!

3. i am super duper free!

well, it's now our mid-term break. i only have one mid-term, EC1301. and i know i probably shouldn't be slacking so much. i barely touched my notes at all. went out and ate, shop, played games, facebook-ed. tomorrow's already friday. and i wish time would just pass by faster cause i seriously can't wait for classes to begin again. i know, the irony.

i know i always say we should appreciate and live at the present moment but i am terribly bored. and the way i spent my time disgusts me. school is fun! cca is fun! friends are fun! staying in my room for so long feels like i've been locked up in prison for some stupid reason. now i know what it feels like to be a prisoner. of course, minus the caning parts.

finished watching a few romantic comedies, my favourite :) always begins with some ugly chick and super hot hunk, both studying in high school. and the chick's been crushing on him since like forever (only, who doesn't?). but of course, she doesn't stand a chance. NUH UH, cause there are always the cheerleaders and the cheerleader squad captain who is absolutely mean to her. and obviously, the pretty blonde bitch is the hunk's girlfriend. but in the end, the ugly chick gets the guy. she always does.

maybe i like watching em cause i secretly wish this kinda things would happen to me someday..

ending with a quote i saw online:

没有什么过不去，只有回不去。

personally, i found it very motivating yet sad.

you think for yourself.

....

2011-01-18T20:45:00.002+08:00

have you ever gotten bored of the way you look?

cause i feel like i am. should probably go to a salon and get a new hairstyle. always wanted to try dyeing my hair. but i always chicken out. i should go get a hair treatment too :\ and all that stuff requires MONEY.

today's an absolutely free day and i spent it doing nothing. oh the glory. -_- people are already beginning to mug.

#?

2011-01-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

back in singapore! this sem i will be taking LSM1103, LSM1104, LAC2201, EC1301 and most probably PR2202.

and the other day i just remember how we have limits on the number of level 1000 mods that we are allowed to take. including my core mods, i am now only left with 6 more, which of course i intend to use for IT1001, SSS1207, GEK1542.

sigh! life is harsh. i don't know why but there are always clashes and it seems like i am always the only one facing such things. my biz friends don't have to bid. my law friends don't have to bid as well. my engine and sci friends have no problem whatsoever in finding the perfect timetable. some are even taking 6 mods! how the hell they manage to fit all that in, i have no idea. considering how we have 2 4-hour-lab-sessions as well, their timetable must be totally .. hectic.

even after 3 years here, i guess i am still a newbie in singapore :(

#148

2011-01-02T17:26:00.002+08:00

happy new year! lets all welcome 2011 with open hearts, open spirits, open thoughts and open everything else -_-

gosh, i am leaving in 6 days. must have been enjoying myself so much that time seem to flew by without me noticing. well, haven't done much except watching dramas, playing some kiddish games, playing facebook games, going out shopping, going out eating, going out for movies and watching more dramas.

my cap (or cgpa, whatever you want to call it) was not that good. i mean, it's okay but not that okay. let me get to the point: i am not satisfied. i wish it was higher. even if it was a teeny bit higher, i would have been at least happier.

wait, would i be? -_-

i know, people are all just greedy beasts! including me.. :(

compared to my other friends, i did quite well. of course there are those who did even better than me.

so that comes to my ULTIMATE new year resolution:

get a higher CAP!

i know right, such a BORING resolution.

guess i am still boring even after a new year. bleah!

life?

2010-12-16T12:53:00.002+08:00

finished playful kiss :) awesome show. the girl's a bit too obsessive. the guy's a bit too perfect. but don't we all just love dramas? ♥

kim hyun joong, saranghae! x)

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

anyway, back to my title topic. something that bothers me a lot these few days: people committing suicide.

there was this case recently, alviss kong? i can't really remember his name. he's only 22. sad thing: he's dead. I'm serious.

but the thing that bothers me is that, he died because of love. the girl wanted a break-up. he didn't want to. and so he went and jump off a building after posting on facebook about his suicide.

but because of LOVE? and the funny thing is that they only went out for 4 months! 4 freaking months. he was dumb, to be honest. there's still so much more to life. and what about Mr and Mrs Kong? like, didn't they matter a single bit to him? all that he saw was this pathetic 4-month-long relationship?

i know, love is blind. and when you're in love, you do stupid things. but this is beyond stupid. it brings idiocy and selfishness to a whole new level.

and then this morning, i saw another video. another person is trying to do the same thing. posting about his suicide in facebook. for whatever reason, i have no clue.

sigh, the things people do nowadays.

yes, life is hard. life is difficult. i have had thoughts of giving up too. but what's the worst that can happen? every time i feel like i'm hanging by a thread, i grit my teeth and tell myself, in the end, everything's gonna work out fine. and even though sometimes they don't, you only have to tell yourself:

life's like that.

and then you can try again or you can smile and just walk away.

life.

2010-12-09T15:45:00.002+08:00

here goes another emo post. no, nothing happen. just can't help feeling it. think it's the hormones. or maybe it's my period. :|

got nuthin much to blog about since i am in penang. and penang means being at home most of the time.

i just realised that i don't have anymore friends in penang. as in, i don't have a lot of close friends because i always believe in quality over quantity. and now that i see hui min and esther in singapore almost well, every day, i don't feel a need to see them here in penang anymore. and others are busy with exams. penny won't be back until end of jan, when i am already back in singapore. it's like, i have lost touch with penang. and the fact that i didn't study form 6 here means that i don't have any friends in form 6. and my friends are those from form 1-5, who are like all over the world now.

then again, whats the point of hanging out with those you don't even know very well? life's funny and weird i guess. we always want more. simply put, humans are greedy. if we weren't, how did adam's story come about? eating that fruit which should be UNTOUCHABLE.

sorry, this is getting boring.

#144

2010-12-05T15:28:00.004+08:00

park bom - you and i

no matter what happens

even when the sky is falling down

i'll promise you

i'll never let you go

happy december. i know i am like a few days late. whatever :)

back in penang. and the air is good. polluted and dirty.

went out to have seoul garden the other day with some people. and then went cycling with phoebe's gang and of course my gang :) pictures will be uploaded soon when phoebe puts them up!

everything is good, for now :D:D:D:D

#143

2010-12-01T10:04:00.002+08:00

cnblue - i don't know why

I think about you a lot take care I wanna do
and I wish, don't be silly she is popular.
I think about you a lot take care, do you wannado?
everyday I want you in my life all about you

the english is terrible. but i love it :)

last paper was horrendous. don't ask me about it.

anyway, am going out with shing yee later. and i just realised that i don't have any nice clothes to wear :( and my size is not flattering at all making it harder to buy clothes when i go shopping. but back to the main point,

I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR :(

i don't wanna wear t-shirt and jeans again. but those are the only things i have.

tch. life is cruel.

#142

2010-11-29T18:21:00.003+08:00

Shane Harper - Just Friends

if i ask you out,

would you smile and say yes?

if i hold your hand,

would you tell all your friends?

if i sing you a song,

would you ask me to sing again?

or maybe we should just be friends.

will start to post songs that i think are nice so that you can try 'em out too :)

anyway, last paper tomorrow! yes, finally! wanted to go orchard after the paper but have to come back cause esther needs to put her stuff in my room and will be flying off :(

looks like i will have to do it on wednesday. movie with susan on wednesday night! lunch and shopping with girls on thursday! bbq on thursday night! cycling/kite-flying on friday! how awesome :) looks like i am only left with wednesday to do my shopping. but i don't like to shop on my own :( and a lot of people aren't freeeee on that day :|

looks like tomorrow's gonna be a good night :)

#?

2010-11-27T20:00:00.003+08:00

couldn't sleep last night. went to bed at 10pm but ended up tossing and turning. look at the clock. it was 2am. got up and went online until 3am-ish. went back to bed. heard my watch *tit tit*. Great, 4am. somehow.. couldn't remember what happened after that. must have gone off to sleep. alarm started ringing. 7am. i was feeling so groggy. definitely not a very good start :(

went to the hall. managed to swallow a red bean bun. felt like puking but saw *him* and instantly felt better :) eye-candies are awesome!

9am. exam started. my head started swirling. like when you swirl the conical flask? *bleargh* MCQ was tough.. TOUGH. SAQ was do-able. i liked the questions. a lot of application. guess i have the application kind of brain. MCQ was filled with memory questions.

exam ended. went to check on my CA2 score for LSM1101. i must say, i have done very well! :) am proud of myself ngehehehe.

had dinner with brent and others. his treat! :) awesome chu-char. very small portion but loved the feeling of having chu-char.

on side note:

she didn't bring up about the fruits. not that i am a glutton or very greedy but the least she could do was told us about it and share with us? i mean he passed it to her so that we can share? i definitely don't need such friends in my life.

from now on, you do things your way. i do things my way. i am not going to help you anymore. and i don't need your help either. when two individuals stay together, you see through everything, their every behaviour, their every thought and their every attitude in life. not that we are really staying together but i do see you almost every week. and i know what's happening okay? just because i am not with you 24/7, it doesn't mean i am ignorant.

so i guess it's true, people are selfish. even friends.

#whateverrrr

2010-11-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

been cramming lsm1102 into my brain for 2 days straight. 12 chapters of genetics. bloody hell. maybe i should have studied some of it during study week but what about my cm1401?????? i can't possibly leave cm1401 alone.

anyways, finally finished reading through all 12 chapters. but that's only reading through. how many percentage stored in my harddisk is totally unknown :) that's what you get for burning the oil last minute.

some people are already barbeque-ing. as if it is not depressing enough that i still have exams.. these people really make me feel worse. and there are those others who just go and post in their walls: I AM FREEEEEEE! literally implying exams ended for me, you losers!

and you know what's the WORST? someone came up to me..

A: hey, are your exams over?

Me: no, i just started.

A: oh *smiley smiley*

Me: why?

A: mine ended.

and she went off with a BIG GRIN PLASTERED ON HER FREAKING FACE.

for the love of god.

anyway, ALL THE BEST TO ME. LET'S CRACK LSM1102!

#138

2010-11-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

cm1401 is over. had the paper today and boy, i think i got a lot better at physical chem. but organic was tough. really tough. oh well, it's over.

i don't have to know what i get when grignard reagent reacts with ketones or esters anymore. :)

honglii's gonna organise a bbq! :) well actually it's pretty exciting since i loveeeeeeeee bbqs. the problem is, there's only gonna be like me, him and a few others. and don't you think bbq should be something that has like more people? i know... quality over quantity. still.. :\ plus, we'd have to go and buy chicken wings/sausages and stuff. who's gonna get charcoal? O_O and it's right after his exam... i am pretty much confused now. now that i am re-thinking, i sure hope he isn't gonna invite Mr.Constipated-Face. pfft. such a sucker.

anyways, exam's not done yet. i still have two more papers then i will be flying home soon. i can see my very BEST friend again. my rocky heee-heee. i know, dogs aren't humans. dogs can't communicate with us like how a normal human being could. but dogs are just so lovable. they do not judge you or discriminate you, as a matter of fact. they just love you, with all their heart.

friends.. what are friends? do i even have TRUE friends? well, i did. back in JC, when i met amanda, ishleen, afshan. they were really what i would call TRUE friends but you know, these things don't last forever. we need to move on.

i should stop dwelling in the past.

number ?

2010-11-13T01:54:00.002+08:00

神啊救救我吧，

一把年纪了，

一个爱人都没有。

我很喜欢这个歌词。对我来说，非常有意思。　应为我觉得，　这个歌代表我的人生。　都已经二十岁了，我还是一个人，　自己过生活。　没有人来担心，　没有人来说话。晚上要睡觉的时候，头脑是空空的。如果有爱人的话，那你睡之前，你一定会想到你的另一半。　可是我只会想到明天要吃什么。

他会出现吗？

我也不懂。

只能等待他的出现。

现在已经两点了。看完我的戏剧我就要睡了。






我这样的女人哪
就快要绝种他呢又在哪儿～

#136

2010-11-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

it's been so long since i blogged in english. and it's getting pretty rusty, so here goes :)

you know how we always watch so many dramas. sad ones, happy ones, ones that make your eyes swollen the next day, ones that render you speechless, ones that make you laugh till your tummy aches..

but they always have the same ending:

everyone lives happily ever after.

and then it got me thinking..

when will my happy ending come?

it's probably stupid to want a happy ending as of yet since i'm still only so young..

i loveeee and simply adore watching all those dramas. the leading girl always has the leading guy by her side, willing to do anything for her.

yet, when will those things ever happen to me?

when will i get to feel like someone cares?

and how much longer do i have to wait to finally meet that somebody?

does he even exist?

#135

2010-11-06T00:58:00.002+08:00

真的想不到，有人写了我在他的blog上。

如果你以为是好事，你就错了。

他写的东西让我说不出话。

没关系，我不要在官了。

就是说吗，人不会改变的。

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Anyway,

今天是你的生日。

所以，我在这里要说：

生日快乐！

希望你永远快乐，健康！

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and imma stop here guys :)

good night.

#134

2010-10-23T13:51:00.002+08:00

今天我们又在遇见了，

你就站在我前面，

我想说话，

可是我知道，

你没有看到我，

如果我真的说 hi,

你会回答我吗?

因为事实上，

你根本不认识我。

#133

2010-10-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

我很 stupid 应为我昨天的 test 做错了一个问题。对也不会写。

我的妈啊！

真的不能 remember.

今天我的头很痛。早上的时候，我的 alarm 0700 就一直 ring 可是我 0730 only wake up! D: 所以就迟到。还好，老师没有神气。很多人还比我晚去。

说真的，我也不知道为什么我怎么累。。

我觉得好想很久没有喜欢人了。有一点可怕，难道我真的找不到我的一半吗？

我的朋友说一定找到的。。真的吗? 可是我都孤单怎么久了，如果我真的找到，我会快乐吗? 人家说要感谢我们拥有的 things。（-。-）

现在，我要 share 一个笑话！

this one came from my biochem professor. especially for science students, lol!

3 friends, consisting of a biologist, physicist and a chemist decided to go for a holiday. so off they went to the seaside. it was really beautiful there. but upon reaching there, the physicist ran to the sea.

P: oh, i have learnt about this! waves, amplitudes! i must simply go and research and discover more!

C: wait! we are here on a holiday!

P: no, i must go!

and so he disappeared.

B: ah! the fish, the food cycle! this is amazing! i must go and learn more!

C: wait!!!!!! we are HOLI...

before he could finish, B disappeared as well.

and now the ultimate ending:

C took out his notes and scribbled:

B and P are soluble in water.

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO. it was totally hilarious. the whole LT went crazy. well, if you don't find it funny, i don't blame you. maybe it was the way the prof told the story.

anyways, ending it now. sorry if this post is totally messy and MIXED up. you know la, my chinese sucks.

#132

2010-10-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

this american/german girl is baking muffins in the kitchen.

and they smell so bloody good.

i should probably start baking some !

!

2010-10-15T15:31:00.002+08:00

第一百三十个 post 了！

这儿两个月来，我都在学习汉语。现在，我的汉语还是不太好可是可以说不错了。

晓曼, 你很 holiau！

我认识的词太少了所以。。如果我写错，对不起！

现在，我很讨厌那个人。对她来说，我们真么多年的情谊是没有意义的吗？还是说实际上是一个假意？我真的不懂我为什么还是那么的神气。都过了那么久！晓曼，你真的很小气！就原谅她巴。。

虽然是她自私，是她不对，你也应该大方一点啊。。

#129

2010-10-10T20:48:00.003+08:00

i know i shouldn't have such a small heart. i know i shouldn't bear grudges against someone just because of a tinny incident. but it's not that i really want to. i just couldn't fathom that this person actually said something like that.

after all these years of friendship, i thought it was genuine. but no, it wasn't. you're just as selfish as the others. you're just one of those bitches who use other people, who doesn't take friendship as friendship.

i know you probably said it without thinking but i just.. i don't know. i feel so disappointed.

you come to me and ask me about everything and you know what? i told you and helped you in every single way i could, EVERY SINGLE BLOODY TIME.

but i guess it has never occurred to you huh? you just take me for granted.

i am really lost for words.

for the first time in my life, i find your face repulsing.

and it's so sad,

because i think you just lost my friendship.

disclaimer: the person in this post and the one before this are 2 different people. please do not associate. i know it may look as if i expect a lot from my friends, but i don't care what you think about me. because i do know that i treat others like how i want to be treated.

#128?

2010-10-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

walao. i really hate you.

HATE!

you need my help, you call me.

you need my company, you call me.

and you never thank me or appreciate me.

what the hell do you think i am?

some FREE girl?

fuck you.

and i'm gonna stop talking to you..

well, at least for now!

bloody smash it.

2010-10-03T22:40:00.002+08:00

yes, i really feel like smashing one.

#127?

2010-10-01T22:24:00.005+08:00

chem was totally hilarious. it was so hard, i think someone cried at the end of the paper. oh come on, i know it affects your C.A.P and all but seriously, your life does not revolve only around this ~~fucking~~ piece of paper?

viet was okay i guess. i did study for it but when i got the exam paper, it was as if someone sucked up every single viet word from me. hope i did okay. tomorrow we are having some cooking project, so i have to wake up early again.. on a saturday morning! :\ no choice right. we are cooking some banana soup. yes, i LOVE banana.

but banana SOUP? i don't know. doesn't sound very appetizing to me.

three more exams next week. oh, for the love of god. 5 mid-terms is really, not what i had in mind. and since it's on monday, tuesday and wednesday, that means im only left with sunday (once again) to study.

anyways, pictures for the last post! (since it's been so long since i uploaded any pictures :D)

the food we had at cafe cartel and my crocs ! :D

alright, i better start studying.

#125

2010-09-26T15:02:00.002+08:00

side note: i wonder if i can reach 200 posts by end of this year lol.

anyways, in pretty good mood to blog these few days. no one reads so i wonder why i bother to blog sometimes.

yesterday, went out with bro for the whole day. its been so long since i had cafe cartel! it was totally awesome, as usual. the flavour, the aroma, the spice! whew. AWESOME. although i have sorethroat/cough, i just indulged. and that is precisely why i'm suffering now. i'm at the verge of losing my voice. it's so sexy you should ask esther how mesmerising i sound.

and i finally got my very first pair of crocs. two, to be exact. there were sales so i just quickly buy la! both for only sgd44. not expensive, right? and i know how everyone (including me) always says crocs are so damn ugly. hmm, i don't know. as each day passes, my perspectives on life are changing. things that seemed to be ugly/unbearable in the past.. are no longer so hideous. i guess people do change afterall.

bro left this morning and has probably reached home. and the very fact that my bro was here even tho' it's only for 1 day made me feel a lot of times better. it's so sad how people often take things for granted. it's only when they do not have it that they begin to appreciate. that is why, i'm gonna start appreciating everything i have. my hands, my legs, my eyes, my ~~ugly~~ face.

moving on, how do you feel when someone treats you nicely?

what if it was an opposite sex?

*shrugs* maybe they are just being nice :)

#124

2010-09-24T20:44:00.002+08:00

went to see the doctor just now. cause we are subsidised, i only pay SGD1.75 for the extra lozenges.

had dinner with 5 other people but i think it was kinda awkward cause i know all of them but they don't really know each other.

came back up and took my medicine and now my head is screaming

CRASH AND BURN

oh god, please spare me the pain. i will be good, i promise. :(

having mid-terms next week.

CM1401 - Monday

LAV1201 - Tuesday

and i'm not even prepared. 2 more days but i'm hanging out tomorrow. that's only sunday left. yay. once again, i feel that i'm a wonderwoman.

the other time i fell sick, i stayed in school from 8am-6pm. there were no breaks in between, only lectures and tutorials and labs. and when my friend fell sick, she was absent for 3 whole days. sometimes i wonder if im pushing myself too badly.

esther asked me today if i was secretly stressed. to be honest, i don't think im stressed, am i? :\ oh well, at least not on the outside but i wonder if i am stressed in the inside? pfft. most probably my hormones kicking in. 20 and still single. way to go!

even wonderwoman has boyfriends.

me? zilch. should i even be complaining when i can barely handle assignments, friends, ccas, tests, mid-terms, yada yada yada?

okay, i think the medicine is taking its effect. im literally typing nonsense.

#123

2010-09-24T10:03:00.002+08:00

walao. i feel like killing myself. i've been falling sick a lot. this is like the 3rd time since i came to singapore. is it me or is it the diet or is it the fucking pgp room which has bad feng shui?

i seriously have no clue. my head is throbbing so badly i feel like taking a hammer and bang it hard on the head until my brains splatter all over the floor. the sorethroat makes it hard to swallow anything and it is so irritating i feel like taking a knife and cut through my neck. the nose can't stop running and i feel like stuffing my nostrils with a tree of tissues.

wa piang. seriously. can't you stupid diseases just freaking leave me alone?!

# i don't know.

2010-09-23T14:28:00.002+08:00

there are times when people feel emo. now is my time. recently i've been feeling down a lot. putting on a fake smile and go about with life as if nothing is wrong with me. eating out with friends and chatting till late as if i have no worries in the world.

but really, i don't even know what is wrong with me. sometimes i have too much expectations. expect this from someone. expect that from myself. why am i pushing or limiting myself?

i remembered how i promised myself to enjoy uni life after the hellish a levels. so what am i doing to myself now?

i can't seem to understand myself anymore.

2010-08-22T01:29:00.002+08:00

i am having mixed feelings.

no, stop.

seriously, stop.

what's the point, mon?

nothing's gonna change.

so, what's the point?

O Week.

2010-08-04T15:34:00.003+08:00

I thought it was about time I update my blog. It's been weeks, I guess. And I am already in Singapore.

Well, Singapore is still.. Singapore. Green trees, fresh air, clean roads and the same old scene of rushy people. No more complaining about how I am in NUS. No more, seriously. I should be proud. I am studying in NUS.

Well, this week is pretty free since it's orientation week and I am not in it. There are actually a few reasons:

1. It's 50SGD for the thing. And the meals they will be giving are most prolly 2.50SGD per meal (economy rice). Please, Business Faculty caters buffet for their students!

2. My friends are not going as well since they registered a tad bit too late.

3. I'm tired and sick of Amazing Race. Running here and there. Rushing to this station and that station. Why? If the main intent is to introduce Singapore and to make friends, why this game? Plus, I heard that one of the games include blind-folding a guy and a girl. Then, they have to sit down and talk to each other for 1 hour. Seriously, nothing better to do ar?

4. Orientations are supposed to be free. If not, they should be cheaper? Not everyone is well to do. I can actually buy 2 textbooks for 50SGD.

5. I need to have a sleeping bag and sleep outside or in the classrooms.

I have my own freaking room. And it's 11SGD per night. Why am I paying but not sleeping on my own bed? Plus, my room's pretty nice, for me. Lots of privacy, well except for the window section. When the lights are on at night, you can see directly into another person's room.

Anyways, went out with Shameem yesterday. The others couldn't make it. Will be meeting them again this Friday for rag day + touring around campus. (:

Bought myself a pair of flats and some ear rings. *shhh* I'm supposed to be saving, not spending excessively.

Oh well, once bought, no refunds!

Hehehehehehehhehehehehehehe.

Last day in Penang, for now.

2010-07-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

Flying off tomorrow. D: How could my 7 months of holidays possibly just flew by without me noticing?

Sigh. But I don't really feel that sad to go off to Singapore anymore. Maybe I am already used to the feeling. And like my mama/papa always says, it's time to fly.

Sometimes I wonder if my 2 years in Singapore was something that I shouldn't have done. My grades were pretty average and so I got into Science in NUS. But if I had continue STPM, I could have done better and well, get into practically any course I wanted to, maybe doctor.. maybe lawyer.. those sorts.

A reminder: I don't hate Science. And yes, I love Bio. Lots. But if I could have gotten into Medicine, I would have wanted to.

Anyways, now's not really the time to think about the past anymore. What's done is done. What's the point of reminiscing when nothing can be undone?

if only the wind blows in my way.

2010-06-27T18:57:00.002+08:00

confession of the day:

have absolutely no idea why but i am feeling intensely emo.

i know i should be grateful for having so much wonderful things around me but i still feel like i'm lacking of something.

i'm quite sure it's not PMS.

and lately i have been feeling emo way too often.

perhaps it's time to go back to singapore.

i seriously can't wait to begin a new chapter of my life.

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met sa and min at gurney yesterday. we didn't even do much. we just talked. somehow, we managed to talk in this little taiwan cafe for 3 hours. quite sure the boss was a tad bit annoyed cause we were hogging the table. who cares anyway?

on the bright side, congratulations to sa and penny for graduating with diploma! you guys have worn THAT squarish thing. lol!

after taking a few pics, we bid each other farewell and were talking about having an outing tomorrow, of which i'm not quite sure will happen.

anyways, after that, i went on to join my bro and his friends for pastamania followed by toy story 3 3D :D:D:D

the movie is okay but somehow it doesn't amaze me that much. it's funny and basically still trying to teach us to believe and trust our friends. but nah, i wouldn't watch it twice.

the next few movies i'm really looking forward to are grown ups and she's out of my league. total comedy + chick flicks. my favourite! :D

shall end here.

and i think this post sucks.

#115

2010-06-16T13:21:00.001+08:00

And all hell breaks lose.

Thanks to the fucking brand new WESTON external hard disk, I lost around 20GB of videos.

WOW, thanks!

#114

2010-06-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

Gonna start my 2 Week Challenge with that stupid K cereal thingy. Yes, I can do this. Just watch me!

Healthy eating, healthy lifestyle!

:D

#113

2010-06-13T16:11:00.004+08:00

Got this from sin yong's blog and I think they are kinda true. It's a personality test.

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Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

#112

2010-06-10T15:52:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like a failure.

Sometimes, I wonder why people see others the way they do.

Sometimes, I believe that I am not good enough.

Sometimes, I wish I am part of the crowd.

#111

2010-06-10T14:08:00.002+08:00

Fuiyo, took so long and came up with such an ugly, half-done blog. Messy and non-presentable at all, but oh well, lol, I'm too lazy to do anything more about it.

Actually, I don't know what else to do with it.

Anyways, that aside, I really have no clue what to blog about cause nothing's happening. Uni hasn't started. So basically, I'm outta topics.

Lets talk about my current dramas ! :D

Presenting: Down With Love
Casts: Jerry + Ella and others.
Rating: 4/5 Stars!

I've got to say, this is absolutely better than Fated to Love You. It's not draggy. It's straight to the point. It's funny/hilarious. And best of all, it's romantic.

It's about Jerry ( Lawyer ) who hires Ella as the nanny for his niece and nephew (because their parents passed away) and from there on, sparks flew and yeah, like all fairy tales, they live happily ever after.

Sorry if the border looks ugly, I'm still learning how to add borders to pictures and after adding it, I got lost. And now I do not simply know how to change the colour cause there doesn't seem to be any codes.

Ok, enough already. I'm getting sick of my posts. It's so unnecessary. Toodles.

#110

2010-06-09T15:42:00.002+08:00

Actually, I typed a reaally looooooooong post. But somehow, an error pops out saying about some inability to proceed because of some code error. Like what the hell? So let's just forget about that. I posted pictures and all!! And I even mentioned my current dramas and music. Oh well, I guess it's better to stick to the normal stuff like just boring typing stuff.

Gah!

Anyways, I'm off to NUS for my uni life. Gonna have a huge, MASSIVE debt once I end uni cause I'm kinda, living on loans. Anyways, it doesn't matter cause I've always wanted to go NUS, right?

~~Wrong~~.

Well, when I was younger, bout 5-6 years back, I always dreamt of going overseas, leaving this country of mine and live alone, make new friends, be independent and stuff. And yeah, I got what I dreamt, scholarship to go Singapore and all. Grand? Depends on how you look at it. But from my perspective, it's a tough life. It was tough, now it's just gonna get well, tougher.

I know, many people wanna get into NUS as well, and why the heck am I complaining right? Sigh. I myself, have no clue. Maybe it's because I have tasted Singapore life in the past 2 years. It wasn't sweet. And don't get me wrong, it's not absolutely bad, thanks to my close buds who have given me so much support even though I only know them for such a short time!

Maybe it's because I'm envious of others who are going further, who are jumping and leaping and I'm still walking. NUS isn't all that bad, it's ranked 30th in the whole world. And none of my other relatives have gotten so far by themselves. So..

Q: What more of a miracle do I want?
A: Not more, just different...

I'm jealous because others get to go to Australia, America, United Kingdom and I'm still stuck in a mini island.

Maybe I just want to try something new, something different.

Maybe I just wanna get ang-moh friends.

Or maybe, I'm just having PMS.

#109

2010-03-19T16:14:00.003+08:00

Can't believe the last time I blogged was like in Jan. And I had actually dared to say that I will blog almost every or alternate day. Guess I wasn't in the mood for blogging.

But I am, right now.

Just few nights ago, my dad finally spilled the milk. He was saying how disappointed he was in this daughter of his i.e. ME. Yeah, I know my results aren't really that fascinating. I know I am not that SMART daughter you have always imagined me to be. Well, guess what? I AM NOT. And I really wish like I can be one, someone who can make you proud. But I guess I am just not good enough for you. You seem to be able to find the smallest detail to complain about. Oh come on, if you're not happy with me, then why born me? I know, I'm being rude and all. And like he even said I'm sucha whiny because I cannot deal with whatever he's saying. But do you have any idea at all, how much it hurts, to hear you talking like that?

We had this conversation once, when I was in Form 3 or 4, when I started playing more instead of focusing on my studies. Can't remember how I managed to put aside those feelings and ended up forgetting all about it.

And just now, my dad just asked me why I'm wasting my life away. 3 months stagnant in Penang with no outcome.

I am so fucking sick of this feeling.

So imma just let it go.

And dad, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

#106?

2009-11-25T10:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was tiring. Really exhausting. And yes, we took lots of pictures with Phoebe's DSLR. Uber good quality. I likey.

But no, I don't have the pictures yet cause' Phoebe doesn't have a CF Reader. Apparently, hers spoilt so yeah, will have to wait till she gets one. Then again, it costs $26? That's pretty expensive $_____$.

Okay, well basically we only spent like an hour at Bugis. No idea why but we just couldn't seem to find anything interesting there.. though Afshan and Ishleen bought super nice clothes there at only $10. O_O

Then we went on to Orchard Central. My first time there. Gotta say it's pretty nice, though a bit boring since most shops weren't open yet. Bought a 20$ top there. I love it ! It's black and it's kinda like off-shoulders. (ok, not kinda cause' it is)

And then we just stumble on all around and Phoebe bought this really beautiful dress for Prom.

Cost: $100

My word, right?

And Amanda bought a bag which cost $60 :O and a top $20

These kids are rich.

Oh ya, we never got to go Marina Barrage but it's still on! Later, after our 5-hour-singing session. :) Can't wait to do those words. Makes me feel like HyunJoong and Hwangbo.

Toodles !

=______=

2009-11-24T09:30:00.002+08:00

Good morning, world. Now that A levels is over (well, almost), I will try to make it a point to blog every day to make my blog alive again :D

Anyways, bad news: Sandra will not be able to hang out ! (Cause it's her brother's bday today!)

Ah, damn it!

So, how? Are we still going out or not? It's so uncertain. And if we're not then I suppose I will be going to school to online. :[

No, don't laugh. Hostel connection really sucks !

#104

2009-11-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

Yep, it's already post 104. No, it's not really a lot considering how I started this blog like more than a year ago.

This can be partly blamed on A levels !

Anyhow, it's gonna end. So nah, I won't say it's bad anymore. Just 10 more days to my last and final paper: Bio 9746/01.

Just finished Chem paper today and I am already booked until saturday, excluding friday.

Tues- Outing with 08s112 girls.
Wed- Outing (08s102/112). Funny combination but yeah. :D
Thurs- Mock Bio in School (SAD I KNOW !) followed by badminton with 15 other people of whom I am not really close to :O

Will ask Phoebe to bring her DSLR to take many many pictures and then I can post here/facebook.

Oh yeah, have to end this quick cause' Amanda's having her Physics paper tomorrow. Don't wanna disturb her with all the typing. And she's already all excited to go Marina Barrage tomorrow. I don't even have a clue where's that but we are gonna use sparklers there to make the

L O V E

word. Yes. Not kidding.

Speaking of which, she has a new infatuation.

Clue: He looks like TaeYang.

Ok lah. Gotta admit he's pretty cute but well, not my type. It's pretty good cause' then we will never fight for the same guy. :D

Oh, here's a preview of how he looks like ^^

Pretty cute, no?

the only thing that calms me down is the fact that i'm leaving in 18 days.

2009-11-18T17:57:00.002+08:00

ought to have guessed that nothing was easy in life.

studied so hard for econs and the paper came out like shit.

not to mention the dreadful night i had before that.

god, must you really test my endurance level?

2009-11-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

everyone on earth is selfish, and that includes you..

2009-11-04T13:02:00.000+08:00

really, how low can you go?

2009-10-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

some things are better left unsaid.

I cried during the Chem Dept Performance. It was beautiful.

2009-10-16T11:42:00.002+08:00

lousy blogger.

2009-10-11T23:23:00.002+08:00

im back.. i had a lot of things to blog about in my mind... like how i didn't compleete my last post and it was stuck mid-way. stop asking me why.. it's those freaking PRCS.. using chinese software and suddenly i got lost.. amongst the horrendous chinese words.

brought down my data booklet and wanted to do some chem MCQ but ended up walking into the computer room.. to do what? BLOG. sigh, A lvls is coming. How am i gonna get my As?!?!?!

neway, been thinking lot bout what i wanna do bout my life. then again, mama says its not the time to think abt it yet.. focus on A lvls. score it. but now i feel like entering NUS school of medicine. then i can pursue psychiatrist. then again, only 260 students are admitted every year. what are my chances?? oh god.

help me !

dots.

2009-09-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i last blogged that i have absolutely no idea what to blog about now.

nonetheless, yesterday and today had been rather.. interesting !

Yesterday：

Was supposed to meet Amanda(A), Shameem(S) and Phobe(P) at 1100 in front of Orchard MRT. I ended up being late for bout 30 minutes or so.. :\

After walking for 5-10 minutes, we finally reached.. Far East

bored.

2009-09-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

helo.

im bored.

thats why im here.

so just wanna share some hot guy. ;D

since i have nothing better to do. (actually i should be studying but..)

is this guy hot or what?

yeah yeah. go watch We Got Married. It's good for health!

sorry this post is really.. random. =.=

btw amanda's sad and yellin cause they are currently (LIKE NOW) in MSIA for fan signing event and apparently, amanda's in singapore.. LOL

life sucks when..

2009-08-05T16:21:00.003+08:00

1. all you ever think about is him but he doesn't even know you.
2. you try so hard to study but end up falling asleep.
3. you know you've been studying hard and yet you still get lousy grades.
4. all you ever wanna do is go for a holiday but you end up getting stuck with bundles of work.
5. everyone else seems to be better than you, in one way or another.

I'M MISSING HOME AND JUST WANNA GO HOMEEEEEEEEEE.

Bitches.

2009-07-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder how I ever manage to put up with XX people. Especially those bitches who whine and back stab all the time. It's not like I don't whine. Don't get me wrong. But girls who are simply too .. how do I put it.. There are girls who just over-do it at times, you know. And I get pretty annoyed. I just wish some XX would stop acting like a Princess. Yeah, stop acting as though the whole world has to bow down and say, MY MAJESTY.

I really can't believe that there are such people in my life. Throughout my primary and secondary school life, I must say I'm pretty lucky to have 4-5 really really good friends whom I really really cherish and love. Now that I think about it, it's really miraculous how we've never fought before. I guess we all just have the same attitude: HECK CARE. Either that or I'm just very good at picking my bunch of friends to hang out with. Many people said that I'm cocky. But really, who cares? I'm happy as long as the people I care know the real me. And boy am I glad that I never befriended you throughout my 5 years in school. Thank god.

Actually I'm pretty amazed by the things that some bitches do. I mean, they can really stoop down to such CHILDISH acts that I simply can't believe that they are already, what? 19 FREAKING years old? Grow up, really. You won't get to survive if you move out to the real world. You may put up a good act in front of everyone, celebrating their birthdays and buying presents but deep down, I know the real you. Wanna know the best thing? God knows everything. It's amazing how you can sleep so soundly at night after doing whatever you did in daylight. Don't you ever feel guilty?

Bitches who are two-faced are the worst. Especially those who make use of dumb dumb boys to achieve their objectives. Funny thing is, these boys actually fall in love with them. Is there something I'm missing here or are the boys simply blinded by love? They say okay to everything that the bitch wants and that includes sabotaging his own friends.

I'm really in a state of disbelief.. that bitches remain.. bitches. They will never change and they will do whatever it takes to get what they want. Scary how I actually interacted with one last year.

Anyway, good riddance.

I'm gonna get rid of ANOTHER ONE end of this year.

;] Life's good.

confused.

2009-06-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

is it wrong to hate someone? people say when you hate someone, you are actually bearing a grudge and making yourself unhappy. is that true? if so, how do i undo my hatred? how do i remain calm and serene in front of that person when all i see is someone who does not even deserve my respect?

tch.. life's cruel.